Thursday, 30 October 2008

I'm overwhelmed!

You haven't heard from me in a while because I like to live by that saying, "if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all"...let me straighten this out before your brains start ticking; the issues weren't down to any particular person, it was a few things that kinda piled on top of each other. Now if they came one by one, they would have been easy to cope with, but although I am a soldier, I;m not invincible.
I still have a few things to sort out in my life, but one good thing that did happen, was my gig yesterday!
It's kinda bitter sweet though because although all the people that were there for my set enjoyed it, so many of my supporters had to leave early because I was put on @ 10:30pm which is quite outrageous for a weekday night!
However, I was overwhelmed with the great feedback from those that were there and the numerous messgaes from those who really wanted to stay or couldn't make it. So next time I will endeavour to please more of you.
For all of you that missed out, there will be footage soon as we had it filmed...can't wait to share that with you.

I am having a few days of rest now because I have really been working flat out. Really, I think I need to get away totally, to be completely cut off from the everyday things that drag you down. Another country possibly for a break...
Any suggestions? I've got a few ideas, but I welcome yours too.

Gonna continue my rest now sweeties.

Nads xx

Thursday, 23 October 2008


Blah...kinda describes how I'm feeling right now. I dunno if it's cos I'm overtired or because I've just realised that some people will never change...dunno.
I'm a glass is half full rather than half empty kinda girl and like to give people the benefit of the doubt, but there's only so many signs you can take before you realise that maybe that is just how it is...
*sigh*...I'm just thinking out loud. Sorry for being all depressing and ish, but I can't be happy happy joy joy every day !

Nah I'm cool. Not sad. Just reflecting on a few things. I'm good. Got lots to look forward to in life and have my health and a beautiful child...who by the way announced to me the other day he was "leaving me for an older woman" Mum. Crazy child...Me thinks he watches too much TV! Anyway he's tucked up in bed now with a book. No school tomorrow so I can have a mini lie-in before he starts demanding breakfast. I can't wait for the day that he'll be old enough to make his own...and mine!

Promise I will be full of beans next time.


N x

Wednesday, 22 October 2008


Wow...just a few weeks into this modelling malarky and already I've made the front cover of vogue! LOL

Tuesday, 21 October 2008 that a word???

Right now I feel like I have the attention span of a 5 year old. I'm just getting so easily distracted. I should be sleeping, but I'm still working because, stuff I should have finished hours ago is still outstanding and I have deadlines to meet!
Maybe it's all those E numbers I've eaten today...
I haven't got much of a sweet tooth. Well I haven't since I grew up! LOL. But today I went to the sweet shop and bought those strawberry liquorice laces and the fizzy ones too and some black jacks...hmmmm. I think it's affected my concentration span...I have been very fidgety. Or maybe I'm just plain lazy...
Anyway guys. I hope you all are sleeping. Trust me I would love to be :(
I have a manager, but I need a PA...This is too much hard work. I just wanna have some fun now...

Nite xxxx

Friday, 17 October 2008


Hey people...
I can't believe a week has gone by already.
What can I tell ya????
I am extremely tired right now. I don't actually know how I'm functioning. I'm just hoping my body can cope for the next few weeks, cos I feel like I'm abusing it. Late nights, early starts, not enough food...
This week has been really hectic for me. I've had a lot of rehearsals and then a photo shoot thrown in for good measure.
I feel like such a phony...I've spent God knows how long telling people that no, I'm not a model and that I will not be doing any modelling anytime this century...and what do I go and do????...
Well, you know. Lots of people have asked me if I want to do modelling, but I've always turned them down. Despite all the pictures I can get very camera shy at times, so I wasn't sure if it was for me. Plus I am a certified midget @ 5'3" so I'll never be Britain's next top model. However a friend who is a make up artist asked me to model for her this week and I thought why not!
And I'm glad I made that decision. Although I had to leave sunny West London at 7:30 am to go to freezing North London for 9am. I was not a happy chappy. And therefore started to take on my new persona which is 'NADIVA'!!!
Luckily my friend/mua aka Rumel (
, did a fantastic job on my make up, kept me entertained (she knows what I'm talking about) and to top it all off the photographer was excellent too. Zach Burns (who is gorgeous btw girls), happens to be a model himself, but also has a great eye for detail and is able to use his modelling experience to get a great picture. So, despite my diva fits and the fact that all of us were tired, we pulled off a great shoot, which I'm sure will be the start of many.
Alrighty, I'm gonna go and catch up on some TV...America's Next top model! gotta grab some tips. LOL

Speak to you soon



Saturday, 11 October 2008

Low profile...

Hey hey,

It's saturday night and I'm in bed already.
I went out for a lovely meal this evening. I have a very small appetite, but the food was so good that I ate loads!
I've decided to keep a low profile for a bit. I've got so many things to concentrate on, so meanwhile everyone else is going out raving tonight I'm indoors. I was tempted, but I really need my rest because I'm not a happy bunny when I'm tired or very productive either. So I hope my girls are having a good time and having a drink for me :(...Anyway soon it'll be birthday time for a few of us, partaaaayyy...whoop whoop!

Have a good weekend guys and be safe.

Nuff love
N xxx

Thursday, 9 October 2008


Good Evening,

I was saddened to hear of the passing of Daniel Degale. He was such an inspirational young man. I went to one of the ACLT dinner and dances a few years ago and was humbled by the whole Degale family.
They have passionately been campaigning for black and mixed race blood donors for years now and although Leukemia didn't ultimately kill Daniel, lets make sure his life stood for something and register as a blood donors. I'll be doing it too guys...

May he rest in peace, and may the grace of God carry his family through these hard times.

N xx

Tuesday, 7 October 2008

And Another One!

This is surely a record ...3 days in a row! I did promise at the start of this whole blog thing that I was gonna write as often as possible so whenever I can find a spare minute I WILL stay true to my word!

Today I had another rehearsal...10:30 in the morning, and I hate to fall into the steroeotype, and be late...but I was ! Only by half an hour though...Not that bad is it?
We ran through all the definite songs, then had fun with the possibilties, that might be added on to the set.
I'm gonna share a little secret with you. Music for me is very personal and I always try to connect with what I'm singing. But a particular song (actually a video clip of it is up on my myspace) called 'walk right' really touched me emotionally today and I must admit a tear... or ten were shed! It was a bit weird for me because it's not a sad song, it's really quite uplifting...I think I was probably overwhelmed with joy! Strange...

Anyhoo, after a three hour session, it was back to normality. Picking up mister from school! As I was driving, I was thinking how weird my life is. One minute I'll be gigging in somewhere like Italy, Switzerland or Spain, staying in a swanky hotel, being waited on hand and foot and the next I'm back in West London, running after a little child, being a glorified servant to him! Grumble grumble. Nah, I wouldn't change it.... (much). I think it's nice to have some sort of normality. It makes you appreciate the other times that little bit more...

Oh...finally, as promised, my interview has been posted on online magazine They have done a fabulous job with it and kept it 'real'...Have a read.

Ok, mi darlins. That's it for now, before I start to ramble which I probably have already...


Nads xx

Monday, 6 October 2008

My sunday..NOT a day of rest !

Hey guys,

I was going to write a little something last night when I got in, but I was so drunk with sleep I had to just take myself to bed!

I had a crappy morning as I had to stand in the rain to watch my son kicking around a ball (why do boys love footbal so much...please tell me). My jeans were soaked by the time they finished and I felt all damp and disgusting. I couldn't wait to get home and get in the bath.

I chilled for a bit, listened to some music on youtube and then went to my rehearsal. It was a short one this time because I had to go and see my lovely friend Natalie Fiawoo perform at an event called 'Soulcial'. She's a great poet, but she pulled out all the stops and performed some songs too..and she rocked!

I also had the chance to catch up with some of my other talented friends, Jason Jermaine (finalist in Orange Unsigned Act, and Alexander Jackman(watch out for his book which will be released very soon). I love these two guys because they are so passionate about what they do and put so much energy into it. They WILL succeed!

So after watching Natalie belt out her tunes and captivate the audience with her poetry, I left the venue feeling high. There is a lot of talent in the UK and I feel lucky to have witnessed it first hand.
Unfortunately, the rodents of Brick lane nearly ruined my night (as I was walking back to my car I could hear sqeaks..eww the thought of it right now is making me shiver)...
Fortunately (and I know you're not supposed to talk to strangers in a dark alley), I met a nice gentleman carrying a saxophone, who kept me distracted from the 'rats' all the way to my car...I can't for the life of me remember his name, but I hope he contacts me on myspace (I took the opportunity to plug myself and I gave him a flyer!).

Feeling a bit peckish I opted for the late night Mc D's run and got a chicken nugget happy meal with a chocolate milkshake! Surprisingly, it filled me up...Am I the only full grown person who gets full up on a happy meal??? Please say no!

I got home in no time at all (and I wasn't speeding btw) and went to bed content. Entertained and belly full :)

Nads xx

Saturday, 4 October 2008


I wrote this really long blog about my friends...It was nice, but I think my emotions got carried away cos I was writing some really mushy stuff...and that is NOT me. I blame it on the hormones, way too much oestrogen. summarise what I was gonna say...I appreciate you and love the fact we can be ourselves, not worry if the other is offended if we are 'real' with each other. Thank you or helping me see the light when things seem hazy and giving me a good kick up the butt(Nat's speciality).
Love ya all,

Nads xxxx

Friday, 3 October 2008

Hey my little dumplings

Hello my darlings,
I know it's been ages since I last posted something up here but I've been a bit sick, plus my laptop was getting on my wotsits so now I have a new one:)
Last Friday, I went out with my sister and friends for her best friend Adanna's bday. Like a silly fool I went out without a jacket in a little dress and ended up with an awful cold and sore throat. Thanx to Dandan, we were standing in the cold for longer than anticipated because she forgot her ID!
Anyway, we had a good night in the end. But unfortunately I had to get up after 3 hours sleep to take my son to football the next morning...Oh the joys of motherhood!
This week my sis( a gig @ the Soho Revue Bar, so despite the self-inflicted illness, I still had to rehearse and perform. Like they say...the show must go on. But I'm glad I forced myself because I really enjoyed it. And she rocked.
So today, I've been playing with my newest toy, my new laptop. I'm a lucky girl :)
Ok, so I'm going now. Just thought I'd say hi. Missed you.
Nads xx